The Reason

Hello my blog, oh really miss my writing

Assalamualaikum 

So there a so many thing that i missing, so i have a lot story but tak semua aku akan tulis.

anyways, today is my first post for 2 or 3 month passed. 

Pressure, Yes finally this sem is really qiute stress and hard. even nak p makan pun duk pikir benda lain.  but honestly, since dah ada kemera idaman, memang tidur lena je lah, but sebelum tidur lena, i got a nightmare.  twice pulak tu.  ni kalau nak cerita pasal criss cross memang tak habislah.  plas dengan kecewa, sakit hati, plas happy tetiba jadi murung ummm tambah pula bila aku rasa benda ni sia2..

What happen actually, as ussually hidup mesti ada positive and negative, and i believe setiap yang berlaku ada sebab, right

i'm too scare to be in this world alone
without money, knowledge, shoes, shirt and all
i got a many trouble if i don't believe
in life, reality its always happen

Why Allah, tak bagi apa yang kita nak?
kalau bagi habislah, hancurlah dunia, semua impian dan harapan manusia ditunaikan.
thats why bila something happen to us, kita kena berfikir why3
and perhaps anything yang kita harapkan ditunaikan
but apa yang aku harapkan bukan itu tapi untuk jadikan ia satu benda yang baik aku lakukan ia lebih baik.

since deegre, i got a lots of a mature, kinda lebih berani.
ohhh really? umm sometime, i lost my strength, i lost my mind to think, i lost anything about me.  walaupun aku sedang berjalan, aku rasa aku berjalan keadaan kurang senang.
kadang-kadang aku tak nampak jalan yang aku harus tuju.

Allah itu adil
Astafirullah
since benda tu kadang-kadang kita rasa tidak adil
tapi itulah yang teradil untuk kita. kadang-kadang dibawah dan kadang-kadang kita diatas.
i am not a good person, and i also not a bad person.
i just want to know why.

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Option !!!

how can i make a decision if only one option given to me i'm supposed to pick the best from the good.  since diploma is over, not a lot of things changed in my life. for myholiday this time is very long compared to the previous one. I should not compare my holidays this time. I mean for a long vocation for my diploma.  

so, what do you guys thing bout my degree, is it i should apply my degree or just wait for a moment and get ready fine the job, heemm i mean production house.  i'm gonna apply screen caurse (Faculty Film, Theater & Animasi) but how about management caurse?  so with one should i apply for my degree.   it is in a hard situation.  if i get the job so i have to go in Kuala Lumpur or Shah Alam and its maybe quite hard to me, but i must to try if that is mydecision.  

some of my friend gonna take other course like Art & Design, Animation, and some of them still want to take the same course.   

i think i like to write and i have a novel and short story that i made at school before this.  tapi aku tak tahu sama ada ia boleh diteruskan lagi atau tidak.  I will continue and active again but not as before.   so i'll think bout it again before i made a last decision in my live. 

wish me luck  . . . 

Disciplines !

Assalamualaikum, guys

what do you this bout disciplines.  what can i say now bout this.  

just feel what you think now.

i dont understand, its gonna makes me want to laugh.  just see the discripline in ourself.  i really dont understand when some people wake up every morning and make a face like zombi and become like nothing  happen around you.  Important meeting you can delay and your reason is "i'am stuck in traffic jam, i sleep late last night.  Just see what people see and think like others, that all.

sometime i see some people use the website like facebook  just for the publisity.  what you want people look at you.  update some post in fb and just say something that not importand, .and if you are angry, do not be pointed at people about your folly. your behavior is very clear. our views may not match, probably also the view of ourselves in the eyes of others is not the same, it is possible that our views only of the same for ourselves. what are you trying to say to me, maybe someone else can get but for me its nothing and you dont have a motif to write or talk. 

Is it importand that people can learn, oh kau cikgu sekolah benda yang tidak diajar masa sekolah dulu kau mewarisinya sekarang.  i called that is mencari publisiti murahan.  actually thats clearly shows that is your discipline. 

i took to much, i'am not mad or lepas perasaan i just say because banyak benda yang boleh buat aku gelak bila buka fb. whats going on guys.  I write not because to looking publicity or sympathy bcouse i'am not an artis.  i like too write and i like too see.  i'am not aim to anyone so dont be touch.  think positive.

disciplines will show who are you actually becouse people can jugde you from the first word that you use.  see my finger and you'll know what i want to say.

"Be carefull of what u do, what u say and what u write for there are many prying eyes, tattle-tale lips and busy fingers to judge you. Do what u like but people do judge the book by its cover..."

I just want to die now !!

Assalamualaikum, hai, I know lately i rarely want to update this blog, i was busy lately.  

i was changing 'arranging' my life it fit your lies its, i gave it all for the long time, can she say the same thing, i guess this is good bye and good luck.  i can be what you want me to be.  its hurt if me be pretend.  "UNLUCKY GIRL" that is a word you give to me. I believe that God did not make the humans or baby to live, 'unlucky' in this world.  You lucky because you do not feel what I feel now. happy with what you have, you should be grateful. like me, sometimes I do not understand the meaning of happiness, laughter, I just know tears.  

change

adakah aku berubah.   I am honest make a friends, but sometimes we as humans have done wrong. but the offense does not punish for us to hate or anger release. sometime i did a wrong too.  now i'm just think that i just want to die.   mybe it can make you happy? If human have a power to take a life, i can't imagine... if i have a chance i want kill myself without anyone know why I did all to myself.  ya you are right, you're lucky, and me, i'am a trouble maker, i'm suck, i'm bitch, fucking myself.  are you happy.  go on play this game for your own i dont want to play this suck games.  

i wish that you will be happy. . . 

I Won't Give Up

try to listen to this song. . . when heard try to remove the feeling of love, but held the spirit. I had feel that I want to give up, but those words made ​​me sense again.  for what I give up
there is nothing that I would be. Whatsoever i feel so glad, i use my heart as a way of life, but in actually i had to use my mind before judging by heart...

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not

hurt feelings !!

thank you,who i'am called Bitch !! you are right. anything that i do it always wrong, good, good, thank you ya, ya, ya.  I am very proud of you. you always drop the spirit that I have, lower your eyes on me? what is wrong? what I have? I can not even try to? why others can only try with no sense of people who tried to overthrow she back.  ya I do not smart enough, sekolah dulupun hanya budak 'sastera' je kot.  sastera je. not like you.  may be apa yang kau cakap kan tu hanya gurauan tapi kalau dah kira menjatuhkan semangat kawan apa cer dowhh.  lepas tuh nak cover balik.  hem minta maaf lah ye. ni bukan bank yang boleh senag masuk n keluar.  I am outdated? ehh tolonglah jangan menjatuhkan keyakinan seseorang.  if i become a genius student mesti akulah aku tak dipandang macam ni kan.  

lukisan entah apa2, apa yang aku lukis ni, kenapa orang buat muka, does it look like it so bad.  maaf aku memang tak pandai melukis.  itupun aku try je. kot2 ada orang nak puji tapi hampeh, tiba2 aku rasa down pulak.  hem lepas ni tak nk lukis da.  tapi i appreciate the two of my friends who praised the painting near the gazebo. although in the end I get critique is that I think i can continue my painting.  but errr today i think it burn 'seize the day' fuck.  hancur.. dah tak nak buat dah.  only you can do this, you kan pandai hak hak hak.  huikk

I was serious, and I want to be serious. tapi bila aku serious ada pula cakap2 yang aku nih sombong, belagak, poya, yoyo lah hemm ada je yang tak ken pada aku.  i got ahurt feelings today hemm i dont ?know how?

What is lacking?

Do me arrogant? betul ke, pasti ke? hemm kadang2 tu adalah jugak bila kau tak kenal kau, dan sememangnya aku ni bukan lah orang yang ramah.  I am not a friendly, people who not know me mybe lah aku ni nampak sonbong tapi kalau yang mana kenal aku tak dek lah sesombong yang macam mana orang sangkakan.  mungkin sebab aku jarang tersenyum mungkin itulah penyebabnya.  sebetulnya aku takut untuk senyum pada seseorang, takut2 orang tu tak membalas senyuman aku balik.  hemm do not care lah.  

lately I feel awkward, I was good with him but when i facing him its like i do not know him.  himmm maybe that not my time to think about him.   better i focus to my job than I thought things might be dropping my spirit. hummm.. Do I too arrogant? that some people do not want or willing to speak with me. I know who I am, lacking, no anything that can be spoken by special, I do not have the other people there, but I try to set up things that do not have in me. I know of no observations or speech that always teases me.

I am not a beautiful, stylish or anything.  memang aku ni bersahaja.  pakai macam nak pergi pasar, gelak macam pakai mike, berjalan macam tong huiissss.  it all made ​​me weak.  aku selalu pandang bawah sebab aku takut, dan orang selalu pandang aku sebelah mata sebab aku ni nothing.  actually aku ni apa, hidup semata-mata nak hidup atau hidup semata-mata nak mencari apa yang patut di dunia dan akhirat.  mungkin itulah sebenarnya aku dari pandangan orang dan aku tak dapat nak taksirkan siapa sebenarnya diri aku.  macam mana nak buat orang respect sikit dekat aku,  at least i feel like i am (BERGUNA).  sekurang-kurangnya lah.  

Anger . . .

i am anger? (YES) aku nak juga dipandang 'Wahhh' tapi selalunya aku dipandang 'Huhhh' Fucking your ability, if that is proud of you for this.  You are smart to assess what is in someone. Suck.  Fucking your self.  i'am nothing so that what you think and whan to see right.  kita tak sama tapi bumi ni bulatnya tetap sama.  mungkin kau sekarang wahh tingginya pandangan kau tapi one day maybe that not like on your mind.   I want to see what will happen to you, in your place.

. . . 

just see what should i look !!!

Assamualaikum,

now I in a little confused. I need to continue or stop even though i had to overcome in directly it may be alike kind which I think is now.  Now I only think about the future of me. this is enough for me or that it is only the fun of it to me. maybe I should not think about these things now, but in reality I will start my last semesta (5) in this 11/6/12. hemm too early right for me to finish my education. I love the causes that i chooce 1s before i to go into UiTM.  i really like this causes but there may be something less, or not sure waiting for me especially for my future.  I'am not blame or not happy with this i'm just thinking about this.   

impossible if there are people who go to the university just as she wanted to have fun and must be people who entered the university has a goal. like me I have my goals, my spirit very strong at first, but there is some very disturbing things that I think of my thoughts 'oh ni bukan tempat kau lah, what can you do? you can do like me do now ha? like . . ..   ah that time i fell like you are bitch person.  You do not have anything, live like people who go shooping.  lepas beli jom balik arhh. 

I noticed a lot of things but I remained silent. just watch and think. when my brain over time this will not work because its full of things I should not hear. a lot of talk that makes me feel fed up with all this. ahhh just like wanted to kill myself just now.  ya may be right tempat ni mungkin hanya sementara untuk aku berada dekat sini.  macam yang semua cakap i'am not creative person.  ya that right.  itulah realiti bukan fantasi.  apa je ye yang boleh aku buat.  semau tu aku belum nampak samalah aku belum nampak masa depan aku mungkin bukan rezeki aku unuk terus kan apa yang aku dah usahakan.  tapi mungkin ia rezeki aku whose know.  rezeki ada dekat mana-mana je yang penting kita usaha dan jangan berputus asa.  tak heranlah kalau kau lebih bagus sebab  you have a art that is i do not have.  

i always write when I feel down and sad about something that i can say directly to that person.  i was a little sad and disappointed when some people see me as empty when he/she is proud of what he/she has. especially people close to me. of course i would feel so.  

i just can't sleep tonight i'am just thinking what will happen if i take this way.  ada orang cakap you are women takkan nak buat kerja lelaki.  ehh hello ramai kot perempuan yang berjaya dalam bidang ni apa perempuan juga boleh buat kerja lelaki.  why not me one of her.  just give me a time insyaAllah i will do my best.   

I want very successful as anyone else to be proud of. not only to parents but to other people especially those who do not have term that I will succeed.  when I thought no one was beside to me and want to give a motivate to me i'm very disappointed and i'm really down.  don't know how to say.  Damn !! I'm clueless actually I should continue it. with what I'm saying it showed that I just gave up with what I happen and with what will happen. I should not have to feel so.  

i wish that i can achieve my goals, what I expect. even if only a diploma. perhaps one day I will continue to study , maybe in other majors may be in the same course for a degree.  perhaps i will chooce the right couses and will make my parents proud with me.  InsyaAllah, Amin.

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mirror !!!

Assalamualaikum,

I think I had write this story, but this time may be much that I want to share. each day we will look in the mirror that is our home. so far I do not like to see myself behind the mirror, because I still appreciate the gift from Allah has for me. sometimes we can be aware and self-engrossed as they saw a shadow. I'm not proud my self but it just expression only.  sometimes I am fed-up with the attitude of some people who like to talk about the weaknesses of people, if once or twice, it may not matter but if it makes the people will speak up 'eh you have no other topic ke ha?' may be that time you may be a (fed-up) I'm not say i'am a very good but maybe sometimes we should be evaluating themselves to see what our weaknesses are.  Sometimes I jealous with people who have a specialty that I not have. like singing, dancing, painting, good speaker, stylish, and their lives and also education.  

 I see myself as a statue to tell that there are many feelings in my heart maybe it is not like other people but I such as me.  i'am just see me and actually i  want to know me in depth. mybe some of people said to me 'syok sendiri' its okey for me if you think like that.  muhasabah kan diri itu mungkin lebih baik dari tidak melihat siapa diri sendiri.  may be before this i always write post which showed less self-confident I might want to be someone else and don want be myself.  

a thousand questions that our mind is to ask people about themselves. mugkin outsiders can not answer our question because the answer may be only in our own.

important I know who I am and know what my wishes. although things difficult and painful to go through we still need walk to the road.  we have a choice, make it, just do it, ready and go on.

p/s :  Here I want to apologize if what i just talking would hurt the feelings anyone. I did not dedicate it to anyone it is just a phrase only please do not misunderstand.  I am also guilty of an offense do not means i always right, and good person, i'am also as a human.  take a mirror and ask yourself.

what makes you ?

Assalamualaikum, guys

selepas sekian lamanya aku menunggu untuk menulis mengenai perkara ini. hemm quite serius jugak lah hehehe tapi don't take it as a serius topic.

I know all people have their own specialties, but I still do not see me that I have privileges. hemmm quite serious matter when deemed it back. maybe people just know me as a human named Khalida, did not know style, not good speaker and did not speak english, just live like other people but I will always be humble and give up what I do.  I do not know whether this thing should I let it happen again in my personal or otherwise. hemm it makes me insane. I would rather see other people the way she dressed, she personality, she is in their self identity.  sometimes even I do not care what they want to do and what he wanna do, but often I would think that i is the human or woman is easier to most "kesian" among them.  it was normal that women have barriers.  so i think i have to think it back maybe it not my way to be another else or be jealous with another women outside.  

one things that i should tell everyone who know me or don know me.  maybe it too late for me to tell it but i should tell bout that bcoz I do not want anyone to misunderstand me. until now I feel that you made it as a ​​fun of because they did not respect my identity. I'm very easy for me to remember what they like and dislike, but when it's mytime it lost, it like I do not exist anymore, so what can I say now.  others people outside did not respect me like me respect you.  i'am not mad or hate other people did not respect me.  it up to you.  but it like rude lah kan... 'sorry my word is rude'.  I'm a Punctual, keeping promises, remember what people have say, whether it be good or bad, everything i set in my brain, i love to talk, write, listen music, sometime I want to spend my time alone, moody, happy, annoying, grumpy, and sometimes I'll be quiet.  so please don misunderstanding i'am just saying i just want you know who am i actually mybe i'm do a mistake .  sometimes we forget to look at something important in our lives, we only see just as we can and things that is impossible to just look and walk passed away. 

go on !!

Assalamualaikum.
I like the way you, your clothes, the way you talk, your life.   I want to be like you or I should be myself. sometime i jealous with you, you have a  identity, not like me why ha aku rasa cam nak jadi orang lain.  hemm perfectly not give me any success sometime we have a mistake n make the matter is not perfect.  (is it right or i'am wrong) that my opinion lah.  huh life must be go on beb. . .all people in this world where there is perfect same like me as a human.  i think we have a own story same as love, sad , happy, anger, frustration and others.  so don't be jealous Allah dah tetapkan takdir seseorang itu tetapi takdir boleh berubah sekiranyan kita mengubahnya dengan baik.  kadang2 kita terfikir apa yang buat dia hebat, may be they work hard or something else.  lets move out !! masa tu mungkin kita sedia atau tak bersedia.
orang yang hebat ialah orang yang sentiasa dengan Allah dan berusaha, kerja keras, tidak berputus asa, sentiasa redha dan tersenyum ketika diuji and take it as a challenges.
tak akan ada yang berubah sekiranya kita tak mengubahnya dengan sendiri.  sometime people talk 'ah benda tu semua mmg takdir' but we have a choice.  so we can do. 

p/s : i'am talking bout myself actually, what happen in my life and what i see with my eye.  i want be like she/he but i can't be like them as a perfectly they have.  i'am just take a my story and i will do better than i think so you do not have to be the other person was only yourself and create their own identity for the future.  just happy dengan apa yang telah diberi dan dilihat.  we have a own story and the story is different  in our life.  take a time to think and you will  smiling again when  you know who are you really.  don't misunderstanding.

more than i think !!

haluuu, update again, Assalamualaikum GUYS

so many question in my mind, sometime its can make me crazy when i think about it.  i love it, i love to think it but it can make me lalalla lol.  hahaha stupid.  boring day one week of study week i can't do what i want to do balik kelantan, jalan-jalan huh but what i'm planning it can be. huh i' so tired dengan demam nya lagi huh. tak kisah la baiii.  aku rasa apa yang aku rasa korang rasa apa yang korang rasa itu samakan or tak sama.  hahaha ketandusan idea lah pula.  i can not think right now sorry mypost sometime membosankan. . . i just want to say that today i'am going to do wrong a againt satu jari kita menunding jari pada seseorang masih ada empat jari lagi ke arah kita. hahaha i'am going to be a ustazah right hahahha.  when i see the movie "donut" i can see betapa bodohnya ** lalala walaupun ***** hahaha so funny lah.  i'am just whan be myself aku nak pakai apa yang aku suka kalau aku tak suka paham-paham lah aku ak akan pakai lah benda tu.  aku nak buat apa yang aku suka.  just have a many friends walaupun kau kata aku nie tak friendly huh.  whateva i know who i'am.  just know yourself that's enough.  i'am hapy with my friend yang ada sekarang especially someone she always make me laugh when iam wih her.  and also others lah jangan kata aku tak mention nama korang dekat sini.  no need lah yang tahu i'am really appreciate that yang buat-buat ta tahu "sory not mytime to care about you coz you not trust to me" 

change

i'am change? betul ke macam tak percaya. . . why i'am change? saya tak berubahkan? tapi apa yang aku nampak aku sama macam dulu why people say i'am change i can't understand why people say to  me like that.

jealouse

don't be jealous with me i'm just simple person i have many weakness in my life i'm not perfect gils to others gils can talk about me.  i don't know who that can be jealous with me dengan alasan yang tidak munasabah dan kau tak boleh terima. . . masing-masing ada yang cantik pada diri sendiri.  just trust yourself and confident in yourself. . . yang paling penting jangan tunding jari pada seseorang kerana yang pasti empat jari lagi akan ke arah kita so be carefull "it is warning for myself as well"

 

what can i do 

owhh please do not push me like that.  i like to take a pic (diri sendiri) walaupun ada yang kata i'am "SS" so what ! can you take my pic,  owhh that not my word for you. i like to see my face in my pic. i don't mind if people don't like my pic tapi yang penting  my face same like my mother face. . . and also my father face so aku nie beruntunglah mana2 aku pergi mesti akan ada 2 pandangan orang hahahaa. mybe akan ada orang kata "ah macam comel lah buat macam tu" hahaha tak ada seorang pun yang pernah kata pada aku aku nie comel so if that word yang keluar dari mulut ** thats mean kau tu yang perasan comel lalalala sory my word so bad.

thankful

ahhh sangat bersyukur pada Allah i have a family yang bahagia.  i love my mom, dad, bro, and sis and also my litter sis mama n litter bro baby mali i really miss them. hehehe  I am blessed with a mother who is very good for me sehingga tak terkatalah and my dad ahhh my father  likes to do things alone.  music, music, music and kerja tetap dia sampai satu tahap aku pun tak faham.  that is my father.  hehe my bro n my sis so annoying to me bila aku balik je ada jelah yang diorang nak kenekan aku lalalal dah lali kot.  n kucing2 aku tulah yang jadi sahabat bila mak n ayah tak ada dekat rumah. hahhaha

what else can I say

emmm yup i love you mom, dad, my family, anf of course my friend lalalala
don't be shy with me coz aku nie pun gila-gila juga. 

okey bye bye Assalamualaikum 

i see him like bitch !!!

i don't know why when i see him like bitch (sory my word so too much) damn !! i will going to crazy with him.  he's so like annoying, evil n over suka interframe.ishhh he look like **** sory i don't like you. . . macam **** (to much again) arhhh stop hate him. arrhh i feel like now want to kill you.  you smile to me even i smile back to you but i still hate you.  damn !!! you say to me 'u sombong' but sape yang sombong don't say if you don't know me.  asyik dengan *** je.  how about me? whatever  lah i don't care about you n perhaps i'll not see you again bye bye

loser !!!

i'am really sory !!

i don't know how this thing can be happen. . . mybe my word hurting you.  i dont know.  if i had a mistake from you i really sory maybe i may not know to what I say. . .

Actually i'am feel bad because i'am not with you.  sometime i fell i want to be alone i want to hear " fucking nightmare " evernight.  you know me.  tengs cos you always with me walaupun tanpa sedar ia mungkin akan menyakikan hati diantara kita.  we don't know.  and i don't know kenapa semua ni boleh terjadi?.  i'am want be your friend forever, I am very grateful coz kamu ada disaat aku susah dan senang.  kamu yang buat aku kembali senyum dikala aku menagis dulu. maybe its my mistake.  aku berubah tiba2 tanpa sebab 'that what on your mine kan' i want to share everything with you.  but sometime what i want to say terhalang.  i don't want your heart hurt because of me and I have to let my heart be broken.  not me if i to fight back what people saying, better im just be silent is a good way but when I take a long time it will hurt my heart too 'is not you prob coz you said don't be like that' but i'am still like that.  maybe we no have a same hoby, and i dont mind it.  yang penting kamu masih kawan aku.  i know people always make a mistake like me, you and other.  but sometime it will be afraid to me.  maybe you have anything on your mind. . . i'am really sory for this mistake. let do what we has do before this, smile, laugh, ideas n all what we has do before this.  what can't i say sometime i need to be alone, i need my time, i want do what i like.  hapoes you understand and i'll undertand your situasion.

p/s :  I did not expect for you to understand me, what I want is that we can understand each other. if I suddenly disappear from the sight of you does not mean that I fled from you.  if you suddenly disappear from my sight and i know and i understand.  don't be touching went you read this.  this word really come from my heart.  but i can't say it,  I can not  express my words in faced with you.   I knew I was here just a statue, nothing, That why questions will be asked by your own will stop. because I know I was stupid, I can not answer your question just now, I just want to say that I am nothing. i'am really sory.

S.O.R.R.Y

damn ! don't interrupt other people life !!

why do people like this exist in this world, I do not understand.  they make me crazy when i see them. huh.  i  don't have any problem with they so please stay away from my life.  I do not know how to faced with them.  they can not communicate effectively with me, they think they were of the best.  please be careful.  i dont like it.  maybe first time i see mereka bolehlah  nak tutup segala air muka  tu but bak kata orang don't judge a book by is cover kann.  i agree with someone.  she said 'if you stay want to play this game ya play it your self lah' baru betul dari awal mana ada orang nak main dengan kau tetiba kau yang over nak main dengan kami.  you had chosen the wrong way.  so stop it before i'll stop you.  they are very annoying for me ishhh (im just weird with people nowadays) stop talking about others people, aspecially about me ya.  (don't be like katak bawah tempurung) they is someone talking about me 'khalida macam katak bawah tempurung' but i dont think so.  mybe im slow and stupid andthen they can say to me like that.  huh sekarang nie sapa yang macam tu.  think yourself lah malz nak layan.  im not say im perfect person, i also make a mistake aku mengumpat juga, aku menipu juga, aku buat kesalahan juga same like otherlah.  but its depends on situation lah.  its realy damn to think kann 

nasi lemak 
air tea panas
roti canai
kedai mamak

selalukan ada manusia, i though tempat nielah aku boleh nampak apa yang aku tengah tulis sekarang nie.  mana-manapun sama je mybe aku kebetulan disitu.  tak kira lelaki or perempuan its a the samething.  aku nak tegaskan supaya korang tak salah faham semua orang ada buat salah tapi semua orang ada buat baik juga tapi adakah perbuatan kita itu boleh diterima oleh semua orang.  think before you do it something. tak penat ke?  accept something a new and redha dengan apa yang dah berlalu. sometime people will be fed up with people like them so be careful nat all like what they do and say.  if they do the samething just give a " fuck" if you think you want to do it. . . but remember that not a good word to be use by us.  

p/s im just talking abaut what have happen in this world and im not aim with anyone coz i do a same mistake actually.     

arrr my eyes hurt !!

dah kenapa mata aku nie pagi-pagi cam nie nak sakit arrrr tension aku lah.opsss sorry aku belum makan lagi heheh mungkin sebab tu kot. (apalah) anyway aku nie dahlah rabun pastu cermin mata yang aku pakai sekarang nie mmg hanya pawer je hehe untuk silau, pertahanan cahaya langsung tak ada (kualiti cermin tu kurang) apapun aku pakai jugak tanpa cermin mata mana leh hidup aku. have become familiar to me !! mata nie sebenarmya penting kalau tak ada mata susah dan merana.  itu sebab lah wujudnya mata nie.  ada orang rabun ada orang yang tak rabun bersyukurlah kalau mata tu tak rabun kalau dah rabun susah everything yang kita nak buat leh jadi susah so jagalah jangan dah jadi cam aku baru nak jaga.  errrr sakitnye, what can i do? jumpa doc or tidur ishh kalau aku sambung tidur jawapnya lagi sakitlah mata ngan kepala aku nie, agaknya semalam aku tak cukup rehat kot mybelah.  enough to live with glasses, I'm happy. is not the same if you want to compare with the natural eye but that "not me ask this" whateverlah janji I can see what other people can see even with glasses

:)

if you do not know please ask, dont be 'bodoh sombong'

Assalamualaikum, guys
korang tahu ta apa maknanya 'bodoh sombong'? macam biasa pernah dengar kan jomm :)

ramai kot sekarang yang aku tengok cam tu, sorry tak semua orang.  kalau ta tahu tanya lah tak salah pun.  jangan sampai orang lain nampak kita cam tuttt hahaha (bodoh sombongla) hemmm salah ke bila bertanya? salah ke bila banyak soalan diajukan? salah ke kita menjawapnya? answer me, sometimes we can be fedup dengan soalan yang diajukan tapi jawap jelah.  opsss sory ini bukan masalh dengan sipenjawap ni soal sipenanya soalan tu. walaupun benda yang kita nak tanya tu kecil je but tanya je lah ohhh malu yer or ego.  jangan biarkan ego korang tu menguasai diri korang.  walaupun kita sendiri tak nampak benda tu tapi orang lain boleh perasan tau dengan ego kita.  im also have a ego. . . mana yang korang lebih malu bila korang tanya atau ego korang tu orang lain yang perasan bukan setakat dia tertanya2 tau mungkin boleh sampai jadi bahan bualan orang lain.  biasalah manusia tak lari dari mengumpat nie. . . like me dulu aku sanggat ego kalau nak kawan pun mesti sikit je tak nak ramai-ramai, aku seorang pemarah, suka merajuk but went I first came to uitm aku da tak bawak dah perangai itu.  tapi adalah sikit2 ia masih adalah.  egokan namanya tu kadang-kadang aku pun malaz nak tanya orang heheh.  hemmmm.
dah lah tak nak tanya, buat-buat pandailah pula hemm something wrong lah ishhh.  semua orang ada ego tapi jangan lah jadikan ego tu sebahagian dari hidup untuk hari2 esok, binasa nanti. itu namanya bodoh sombong bukan pandai sombong 
im not talking about sesiapa disekeliling aku but itulah manusia, bukan setaka torang lain bahkan aku sendiri pun kadang-kadang ego jugak, kalau tak ada ego bukan manusialah namanya tu.  okey do not misunderstand.
insyaAllah bila kita tanya orang, diorang akan jawab balik dengan baik .  AMIN

i have no choice !!!

Assalamualaikum guys,

banyakkan pilihan yang sedang ada didalam fikiran kita nie tapi . . . ...... tak pasti adakah itu ke pilihannya?

many choices in this world that we choose, but there are also options that we can not make a choice and we had to take many so that is common. . . 

sometimes life never forces us but we are forced to live is to survive. cruel kan. . . but its normal.  chill la. . . same like you, do you have any choice too your life, of course you have but you  dont know whether your choice is actually kan.  hem same like me, i have many choice but I can not select all, I can only select one or two je sebab kita ada batasannya, kalau tak ada batas maknanya semuanya kita boleh pilih hahhaa hancurlah semuanya nanti. . . hemm kalaulah semuanya kita boleh ambil dah tentunya semua orang akan dapat what you want kan. mungkin pilihan yang kita pilih tu yang menentukan siapa kita.  samada betul atau pun salah itulah pilihan kita. but it does not mean we will make a mistake every time we make a choice, belajarlah dari kesilapan right.  hemm tak salahkan biasalah semua manusia ada melakukan kesalahan,  tapi yang bermasalah sekarang ni bila ada orang yang tak tahu nak belajar dari kesalahan, they make a mistake again!!!  im not talk that im perfect person, I also make a mistake. . .hemm today im skipping klas coz aku malas giler hari ni,  ya itulah kesalahan aku im lazy person but not everyday lah hehehe.  everybdy have a mood kan sometime you happy, sometime you sad, sometime you angry sometime you feel like the world is yours. so pandai pandailah kita buat pilihan.  jangan harapkan orang je tau. hemm lets talk about love. . .like love,  i can love him but i cant have him. . . that a choice.  now what can i do, paksa dia, jumpa dengan dia atau guna2kan dia hemmm imposible lah.  you know love not be compelled to love, true love will present itself, so jangan paksa cinta .  same like he used to tell me masa sekolah dulu.  im still remember that, always.  i have no choice when im falling in love. . . sometime kita terpaksa lepaskan dia dan terima orang lain dalam hidup kita kan. . . how about your felling, you have no choice kan sebab dia dah berpunya atau korang dah tak cintakan dia.   samalah kalau kita p shopping kan, okey katakan lah ada dua baju ni korang memang nak dua-dua but your money not enough to buy this so you have to choice with one you want and with one you have to put back it. ha? time for choose !!! pilih lah.  tapi setengah orang dia mungkin akan letak kedua-duanya balik  sebab lebih baik jangan beli kalau tak hemm aduhai asyik teringgat pada baju yang kita letak balik tu tadi. . .tapi yang nie boleh tahan lagi tapi kalau soal hati, macam ne lak?

hemm anyway actually we have many choice but we cant choose at all, pilihlah yang mana penting je.  yang tak penting tu kemudianlah ye.  

semoga hari yang akan datang kita akan dapat banyak pilihan didalam hidup kita.

amin, insyaAllah