what makes you ?

Assalamualaikum, guys

selepas sekian lamanya aku menunggu untuk menulis mengenai perkara ini. hemm quite serius jugak lah hehehe tapi don't take it as a serius topic.

I know all people have their own specialties, but I still do not see me that I have privileges. hemmm quite serious matter when deemed it back. maybe people just know me as a human named Khalida, did not know style, not good speaker and did not speak english, just live like other people but I will always be humble and give up what I do.  I do not know whether this thing should I let it happen again in my personal or otherwise. hemm it makes me insane. I would rather see other people the way she dressed, she personality, she is in their self identity.  sometimes even I do not care what they want to do and what he wanna do, but often I would think that i is the human or woman is easier to most "kesian" among them.  it was normal that women have barriers.  so i think i have to think it back maybe it not my way to be another else or be jealous with another women outside.  

one things that i should tell everyone who know me or don know me.  maybe it too late for me to tell it but i should tell bout that bcoz I do not want anyone to misunderstand me. until now I feel that you made it as a ​​fun of because they did not respect my identity. I'm very easy for me to remember what they like and dislike, but when it's mytime it lost, it like I do not exist anymore, so what can I say now.  others people outside did not respect me like me respect you.  i'am not mad or hate other people did not respect me.  it up to you.  but it like rude lah kan... 'sorry my word is rude'.  I'm a Punctual, keeping promises, remember what people have say, whether it be good or bad, everything i set in my brain, i love to talk, write, listen music, sometime I want to spend my time alone, moody, happy, annoying, grumpy, and sometimes I'll be quiet.  so please don misunderstanding i'am just saying i just want you know who am i actually mybe i'm do a mistake .  sometimes we forget to look at something important in our lives, we only see just as we can and things that is impossible to just look and walk passed away.