I just want to die now !!

Assalamualaikum, hai, I know lately i rarely want to update this blog, i was busy lately.  

i was changing 'arranging' my life it fit your lies its, i gave it all for the long time, can she say the same thing, i guess this is good bye and good luck.  i can be what you want me to be.  its hurt if me be pretend.  "UNLUCKY GIRL" that is a word you give to me. I believe that God did not make the humans or baby to live, 'unlucky' in this world.  You lucky because you do not feel what I feel now. happy with what you have, you should be grateful. like me, sometimes I do not understand the meaning of happiness, laughter, I just know tears.  

change

adakah aku berubah.   I am honest make a friends, but sometimes we as humans have done wrong. but the offense does not punish for us to hate or anger release. sometime i did a wrong too.  now i'm just think that i just want to die.   mybe it can make you happy? If human have a power to take a life, i can't imagine... if i have a chance i want kill myself without anyone know why I did all to myself.  ya you are right, you're lucky, and me, i'am a trouble maker, i'm suck, i'm bitch, fucking myself.  are you happy.  go on play this game for your own i dont want to play this suck games.  

i wish that you will be happy. . .