Keep Pure !!

Assalamualaikum guys, its been so long right.

how is it, how ur day, yahhh ready for a big day 

comes and go like that make me wonder what is going on? 

no wonder how, no wonder why.

Since everything has done with me, i look back to my self for what and reason.  look at past post that i write before this.  its really hard.  

okay back to topic, sejak aku berjinak2 pakai tudung i have a lots of story about wonder.  others people have their opinion so i also have my own opinion about hijab.  

yeahhh i m free, feel peace , and boing2

Anyways,  those say that there are ugly to be beautiful is actually wrong.  what up? hey !! beautiful not means to be beautiful in outside only.  beautiful have a broad meaning.  that not means to one thing that you have its enough to say that you're beautiful.  whatever you do, you as a woman have a ur own beautiful.  ypu are not ugly, when we all grow up we saw what we did not see previously.  so STOP say UGLY.  DONT LISTEN TO ANONS, BECAUSE YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL.  

Back to myself, i m not enough good, i also have my weakness in my life.  sometime my heart said the same thing like the other talk.  owhhh ugly, you are ugly, so you give up !.  every woman pernah cakap benda yang sama.  this thing will make you feel down of course, aku pun pernah sometime soalan bertubi2 datang sehingga kita tak dapat nak menjawab pun sebab tekanan.  but that not the issues, if you positive all the way that you walk will be fine.  InsyaAllah Allah always help us.    

  The way you made it, Mashaallah keep with your strong heart.  

Melintas Waktu !!!

Hello readers,

Just a simple writing here,

sebab dah malam mata pun tak boleh nak pejam, apa lah masalahnya.  Macam mana aku nak stat pun tak tahu.  So random aje lah nak kenangkan kisah kelakar dah macam tak kene malam-malam nih, hehehe 

Selalunya kita menghadapi masalah yang sememangnya tanpa diduga, kadang-kadang masalah itu datang dengan keadaan yang kecil dan kadang-kadang datang dalam keadaan yang sanggat besar.  tanpa sedari pasti ada sebab dan hikmah yang Allah ingin berikan kepada kita.  Kadang-kadang aku langsung tak kuat untuk teruskan hidup bila masalah datang dalam hidup aku, perasaan marah, sedih semuanya ada bagai tak tentu hala dibuatnya.  bila difikirkan balik, bukan aku seorang sahaja diduga dengan ujiannya.  

Dan orang pulak nak tahu sangat masalah yang kita hadapi, "Eh what wrong beb?" ha itulah and then ummm "simpati", seriously tak faham langsung.  

Bila dipandang rendah pula, hati ni tak terkira betapa hancurnya.  

Bila marah, people said kau panas baran ummm dalam erti kata lain sentap.  

Bila benci, hati tak tenang pula

Bila percaya, pasti akan dikhianati

Bila dah tiada, masa tu barulah terkenang-kenang perbuatan baiknya.  Semua yang buruk-buruk masa tu dah hilang dah pun.  

i can't do anything, Ya Allah

kenapalah dengan aku ni Ya Allah

no matter what people say, everything is same. 

Ya i believe maha kuasa Allah.  

I believe if the way yang kami pilih is the best choice, itulah yang terbaik.  

Since zaman pun dah banyak berubah, so tak heranlah macam-macam yang kita akan hadapi nanti.  

"God has given everything you need to be success."  

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Eid AidilFitri !

Assalamualaikum guys

hello i'm backkkkk hahahha ya kinda a zombie datang tiba-tiba muncul.

its really long, i have find something and thinking a bit bout something.  uhh its really hard but i cannot teruskan so i keep it up and let go what just happen.  

anyways Ramadhan kali ini for the first time puasa penuh dengan family,  if dulu lain.  so this the ramadhan 

have a kelaianan sikit.

  

first day eid macam biasa, salam-salam plas dapat duit raya, and then we are going to rumah my mom cousin.  same like others mesti hari raya ramai yang keluar nak keluar beraya so aku memang tak aspek apa2 pasal jalan raya,  rrrr banyak kereta more than i aspek if dekat kelantan people already know lah the road like what.  so malam kami pergi ke bemban rumah opah, paksu, maksu, opah and all the adik beradik my mom  berkumpul dekat situ.  

time already 11.00 pm, masa untuk tido but kami tergelak sampai tak tahan dengar cerita ayong pasal zaman diorang masa kecik2 dulu masa arwah atuk aku ada.  kinda everything like i can see what happen that time. gelak tu tak payah cerita lah usus aku ni dah rasa macam tak berfunsi dah, nafas aku ni pun dah tak betul tambah plak dengan otak aku nak berfikir memang tak boleh nak berfikir langsung. sembang punya sembang jam pun dah pukul 12.00 am but i not remember pukul brapa baru kami semua angkat kaki nak balik. dengan kaki dah lenguh-lenguh, mata dah nak tertutup kuat kan je lah sebab duit raya belum dapat lagi. seriously nak je aku gelak kuat-kuat but i cannot lah.  sometime i kinda missed what are them said disebabkan mata dah memang tak tahan nak tido.

Since benda tu dah lama tak diceritakan balik tu yang gelak sampai naik pengsan tambah-tambah lagi cerita ni diceritakan dekat kitorang yang memang tak tahu langsung kisah2 lucu ni.  umm interesting but semua orang dah penat tu yang mata ni tak larat nak bukak. kalau cerita tu dapat di shoot kan lagi nice haha but that night really fun lah. 

Second day, my mom sis ada buat open house so everybady comes.  And then we going to the rumah pak yop.  kebetulan sanggat dekat rumah pak yop merasalah aku nak makan kimchi sebabnya bersembang pasal korea.  tapi seriously tekak aku tak boleh terima sangat kimchi ni, nicelah kalau ramai geng2 kaki korea duduk semeja. Actually dekat rumah pak yop banyak sangat barang-barang antik ang dia kumpul so tengah duk belek-belek barang dekat rumah dia, aku terjumpa this thing.  Seriously, but then my reaction is not like memang betul-betul terkejut, just a litter bit overreactions je.  

hahaha, so i jsut take a picture only bcouse if i whan memang tak boleh lah kan but then dalam hati kental je nak cakap yang aku nak benda tuh, but then terfikir plak apa yang dia cakap.  

but its okey lah, berpada-padalah right.  the third day, pun sama ada rumah terbuka dekat rumah andak,  all the makanan semuanya memang perak punya style sometime aku tak boleh makan makanan dari sana may be sebab tak biasa dengan makanan dekat sana that whylah.  at least i try.  

Yesterday eid sambutan majlis pertunangan sedara so satu hari dekat situ ummm actually tak dek lah satu hari but then i dont know lah how to say, one thing that i really dont like but what can i do, dah memang sini pun macam ni sana pun samalah.  But i don't want cakap banyak lah. 

Okey masa pun dah cukup dekat sana, jadi tibalah masa untuk kami balik ke klantan.  Overall the eid AidilFitri this time really fun.  

special

kimchi finally dapat jugak merasa dari asyik duk tengok diorang je yang makan.  And the things yang aku memang kental nak tapi apakan daya. hahahah well, since i very sukakan korea so why not cuba kan.  

have fun
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D-day with simply moment

Woooo, guess what guys? 

hahahaha akhirnya aku menulis balik.  Its like eh !! rasanya baru je aku update

tapi rupa2 nya arhhh dah lama. its quite berkurun aku tunggu masa nih.  

Rasa best sanggat bila dengar cuti dah tiba tapi bila cuti dah habis masa

tuh arhhh malasnya nak balik puncak.  

Anyways, this holiday will be a gread time but all the homework planning just like terbantut bila dekat rumah, seriuslly.  kinda everything that i planned just like play d games.  I thought it'll be more fun than lepak depan tv.  But ha'ah its actually not like that lah.  u know what i mean right.

Simple day, umm no no simple weeks ya, what are you doing khalida, hahaha am i look like berkebun guys, of couse lah not.  when i wake up early morning i just see dekat sekeliling aku sunyi je, so i go to my labtop and open my facebook, twitter n so on, that thing make me feel arhhh bosannya.  tapi nasib baiklah si mimi ni bagun awal selalu, tak dek lah aku sorang2 pegi2 buta.  so tak ada lh sunyi sangat. 

where your face ha mimi? jelas sangat dia tak nak ambil gambar.  but its okey never mind bout that.  seriuslly  mimi tak macam dulu, selalu sangat nak berkepit dengan mak aku arhhh you make me angry. . . so i just keep my promise hahaha cubit cubit cubit, that thing buat mak aku pulak yang marah.  

seriuslly, rindu sangat nak menulis cerita balik macam dulu, but i dont have a time like before this, so kesabaran aku pun jauh berbeza dengan yang dulu.  

aku tak berapa nak kisah tentang apa yang orang kata apa aku, dan kadang2 aku sedar idea2 didalam penulisan aku sekarang ni nampak lebih teruk berbanding dengan yang dulu.  umm i means my susunan ayat. I just try to find my time back, uhh sekarang ni macam susah nak aku menage masa aku dengan belajar lagi n nak sambung menulis lagi.  it killed me actually.  

So, thinking, thinking, thinking again what should i do to my self.  umm actually aku tersentuh dengan apa yang Dr.Kalam ni cakap.

"Don't read success sories, you will only get a messege.  Read failure stories, you will get some ideas to get success" Dr.Kalam

So, what he said is so give me a many meaning. I always read a success stories, and by that its actually not give what people want, some people get a their success story by their own experience and not from other experience.  Means every person have a their story, sedih, kecewa, marah, gembira itu hak masing-masing people can judge by atitide but the fact is people can't judge personality someone.

So hanya dengan mengunakan masej sahaja its can't help us to get a success. May be kita ada pendapat kita masing-masing, and some of us mempunyai pendapat yang jauh berbeza, i mean lagi bernas.  hahaha just my opinion. ohhh back back to the topic, my d-day actually already finished.  Now i am at puncak so my dally day will stated like as usual.  Just like ya back to school kan.  Begin with a new outlook, umm but still be your self, senang kata korang puas dengan diri korang.

Btw, rezeki semua tu kita tak tahu sebab bukan kita yang tentukan ia.  

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bye guys, 

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simpleBuZYY dapp !!

Hi Assalamualaikum guys

its been so long right, menghilang !! no actually im buzy with my daily life as a student hahahha nothing going on with name of a student.  This week i have 2 presentation, so this weekend i need to setel all my baby homework before midsem holidays.. just a simple writing here 

Yeaahhh, its a great time right buzy with class, class, assigment and so on.

ahhh dapp dapp tired all the day, its kill me every time i wake up early morning uhhh so adalah watak2 kelang kabut dalam diri aku nih, persoalan? huhh shut up !! i really dont like a slow situation. 

Bangun2 jadi zombi ahhh i hate to be a zombi in the morning, that why, i'll sleep walaupun around at 3am, but sama je lambat.. ya i cant skip my bedtime.

I dont want coming late CTU class again enough 3 minggu yang lepas, dah lah kene pakai baju kurung memang seselekeh lah aku akan pakai, i dont thing bila pakai baju kurung aku akan nampak kemas.  so stated today i'll setel all my baby homework secepat yang mungkin dan dari situ i can manage my time and my responsible as a student a actually for my self.  So i can feel perbezaan antara belajar masa dip and degree sekarang :) 

Seriusly, until today i still keep my promise but sometime i feel like tak tercapai pulak hajat aku ni... but i dont things my hajat boleh kekal lama. tapi InsyaAllah hahaha hope ia kekal seperti yang aku telah katakan. 

Actually hari2 aku dekat sini still aku tak boleh percaya umm am i here ? 

hahah sarcastic question right ! anyways hari2 sama je mcm dip dulu cuma 

orang je berbeza, i find a new friend and  new experience so i can see what i imagine once before i m here jadi kenyataan.  

i am without glasses.  am i look like ? ummm zombi?
urr hidung besarrr 

Same classmate !!

whose know we will in the same class again ! haha i thought only me yang out from management.  only three word i made to us "we are partner" tak lebih n tak kurang.  but seriusly wajah-wajah pengurus still segar walaupun kitorang dah tukar course.  its quite hard went first time i take this respinsibilty but this is my choice   my way and of couse this is my goal too.

creadit to nony jugak bcos we also a classmate.  Now already 2.30 am and i m still cant sleep, urrrhhhh kinda everyday like this.  so how can i do? umm i need my time back . . .

and how my eyes.. look like mengantokk arhhh i m gonna sleep now hahaha

BTW i have to setel my preparation for konvocation its'll coming soon hahaha acited bagai lah student2 nak prepare for the reheasal nanti. 

Anyways guys, Coming soon with ours short film "jiwa" 

i will update again !!

bye . . . 

shopaholic puppet !!

Am i right, uhhh i have to submit this in 12 am but now dah lebih dari masanya, umm its okey esok dalam kelas still boleh lagi.   Ahhh keje last minute lagi, habis je kelas petang tadi terus pegi makan then balik rumah terus menghadap benda alah ni, arrrr i wanna crazy yaaaaaaaaaaa !!

Dengan masalah ptptn lagi, actually dah naik fedup da aku dengan ptptn, whylah ko selalu memberi masalah huhhh. Bila call them say its okey , it okey but then benda tu still tak ada apa2 proses lagi it was like "are joking with  me ha?"  hah lupakan, lupakan.

Okey this is my pupper "life moving"

for class Animation history and teknology.

"life moving" umm mesti tertanya-tanya why life moving yang aku bagi untuk tajuk ni, hummm nak tahu hehehe its actualy like alive, is it you life with any sense about moving ya, sometime we move from the place for get the experiance some of then want to grap attention hahaha something wrong lah kalau yang tuh, but it more to relate how you moving in the space to place.  hahaha that about shooping only its really have a story.  But i dont know other thinking, may be pendapat kita berbeza.

Actually, this is my first time and boleh lah kalau ak kata yang benda alah ni aku buat last minute.  But this is the hasilnya, is it cute guys, hahaha very annoying bila tgok muka dia seriusly.  Soooo, this pic base on me,  its quite sama macam aku lah but its actually i have no idea untuk benda alah ni, jadi aku buat je and how? okey okey lah.  

Tapi tak sangka puppet aku ni jadi satu bahan gurauan tengah malam-malam mcm ni.  Faa, lia, wan ,xeno, n mira mcm orang gila tengok gelagat puppet yang kitorang buat.  Anyways, popular jugak,  puppet ni, tak pasal2 faamohd bagi nama fazura sebabnya gaya-gaya faminin tu terselah katanya  hahaha

Faa malam ni sgt2 acited serius ! sampai buat video khas untuk faaazura ni ha, and this the link  keek.com/!bOG3bab  so enjoy guys, faaaazura sanggat.

bye guys :)

our meeting !

Assalamualaikum guys,

hahaha see my baby agian lama weh tunggu macam dah naik gila, miss so much

hi, hello, yeahh mengila, ishhh stop talking nonsen khalida

Fistly, our meeting this time really fun, walaupun hanya beberapa jam saja but its really means to me and her. arhhh terharunya bila aku baca kad yang dia tulis,  anything we had together memang aku tak boleh nak lupakan nak-nak sekarang nih, dia jauh dari aku. I really hope that you can be my supporters ever and ever.   anyways i cried when read your card.  how to say emmm i dont know.

Kalau dia tengok aku macam tak berubah je, aku pun manpak benda yang sama lol.

BTW thank you so much.  hahaha apa-apa pun kad yang aku bagi dekat dia 100 % tak jiwang macam yang dia bagi dekat aku hahahahaha

Sooo, i hope she happy sebab dapat black smile yang gemuk tuhh..... bday gift
                        

Anyways, aku rindu giler dengan gedikzzzz where are you Fahara Ain.... since diploma dah tamat, aku dengan dia berpisah macam tu je, but we still contack ech other, banyak benda yang aku nak update dekat sini, dan banyak yang dah jadi sepanjang 3 minggu dekat puncak ni.  ummm dah terlambat nak update 'apalah kau ni khalida' hahaha  selalu je lambat

soooooo, see ......

 Bday xeno, hahahah first time aku tgok bdak perempuan mengamuk hahaha tak sia-sia prank yang dirancang lol, you got it xeno. great mastermind lol, bie n wan

  i-city first time untuk degree aku jejak kaki dekat i-city hahahahah. banyak yang da berubah dekat i-city,  hummm lambat updates lagi aku nih hehehe, and semuanya kali pertama je mana yang kali keduanya.   

                    

and this is a kali kedua teater yang aku pergi, 'ASMARA SONGSANG' memang sangat tersongsang mata aku ni tgok diorang berlakon.  hahahahaha gelak terbahak2 aku dalam holl BK500 puncak alam.  By the way rindu plak time diploma dulu.  We have a great moment guys

:)

bye bye peeps

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Preparation for degree !

The way that I still invisible

hello guys, i'm back hahahaha

it took time for me to return back like this !

ermmm i dont know how to say too you... ya I will be a student again as you know my diploma is ended successfully and now it's time for me to live as a student again.  

Actually, my feeling is not good now, kinda something i hates betul2 ada depan aku.... macam cacing dan lipas duduk bersama huh thats not mean aku tak bersyukur okay dengan pemberian ini.

Now masa untuk aku uruskan segala keperluan aku ke sana huh macam nak berpindah dah aku rasa, barang2 kecik dah satu beg besar belum lagi nak isi baju dan keperluan besar adoiii tired lah....  sepatutnya sekarang ni semuanya da setel medical checkup ah kne buat ke (mmg kene buat khalida) but its almost done, hitung2 bertuah aku ada kawan masa buat checkup haritu nasib baik, gambar ummm, ptptn (?, rumah sewa emmm nak duk kolej ke nak sewa je kalau duk kolej ttp kene sewa tapi bajet tak banyak lari lah, nasib baik kawan yang uruskan pasal rumah sewa ahhh tq so much dear zainur, tapi bila pikir pasal rumah habis tangan kaki aku mengigil sampai nak makan pun tak lalu, segala borang-borang yang nak kene copy dan hantar untuk dicop pun aku belum selongkar fail dalam bilik tuh, ah'hah satu lagi apani ohhh konvo, almost forgot about that, hahaha ahh tak sabar nak konvo but myfeeling same like my degree huhuhu :o that why i hate to think about this.

Why ! aku masih tak pasti dengan keputusan ni, huhhhh mengeluh panjang malas nak teruskan tapi sayang untuk tinggalkan.  aku harap jalan ni tak kejam untuk aku. No aku harap aku tak kejam untuk berada di jalan ini, baru betul.

Banyak nih yang nak kene buat n nak kene pikir tapi satu habuk pun still bergerak macam siput, siput oh siput..  rasanya siput lagi laju dari otak aku ni...muahhaaa.  What else is left, ni semua gara2 aku duduk rumah lama sangat sampai mood nak blajar da semakin menjauh dari otak aku ni.  

BTW, preparation untuk degree aku sebenarnya belum sepenuhnya selesai its still bergerak macam siput macam lambat lagi nak pergi sana, macam tak nak pun ada,  ahhh bermacam2 lah yang sebenarnya aku da mula seronok duduk dekat ruamh, dan ada alasan yang lain "lebih kukuh" why,why,why? 

Apapun aku tak boleh biarkan fikiran aku terus berfikir macam nih... think positive and i will get a good response. Done

Last years question !!

See and guest what?

I got 21 question from someone that i really know, i dont know what makes her want to ask such a thing like this to me.  that matter've gone almost one year.  so i just remind it back.  Arr its very got me crazy and ofcourse  i want to laugh, laugh again and again.  Why !!  i thought i can answer all the question but its really  difficult to answer.

So, I make myself a statue for me consider about that... just free mind !

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
   
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
3. what you can do with your time?
4. call yourself " i'am ... ?
5. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
   
6. if time could be rotated, and who you want to meet to clarify the of convictions you do.
7. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
   
8. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make u rich ?
   
9. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
   
10. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
    
11. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
    
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
    
13. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
    
14. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
    
15. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?what's holding you back ?
16. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
    
17. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
18. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
    
19. Why are you, you?
    
20. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
    
21. What are you most grateful for?

The true is,  it makes me feel like going to cry ...  she really scare me from the beginning.  only some question that i can answer but i don't really mean if the meaning gonna right or wrong, it just my opinion.  

Anyways, susah susah je bagi soalan ni dekat aku kalau yang si pemberi soalan pun still tak sure, apatah lagi aku.. hahaha soalan yang bagus adalah soalan yang membuatkan kita sendiri berfikir dahulu "masa sekarang" bukannya perancangan 5 @ 10 tahun akan datang.... we dont know that time, hanya mampu merancang. But it is not wrong if we whan to plan.  I also got the same question what i want to be 5 years from now.   ummm ???

Set your day from now, set your planning tomorrow first, before you set your planning in several years to come. 

 

finally i see her !!

hey !! guess what? 

Assalamualaikum

firstly i know i left my writing is long.  Actually, a few days off i have a interview for my degree, ya i know its very scary for me, banyak yang aku fikir before i went to shah alam hummm kinda like i'm will go dying for a
while.. Alhamdulillah finally i able to finish the interview safely and comfortably, i put myself in zone comfortable...

Kadang-kadang mulut ni jangan main sedap  bercakap kan dah dapat... huhh i'm very easy to scared dan cepat gelabah, entah apa-apa jelah.... sometime i hate part of my attitude like that, takut + cepat melatah.  perasaan tu datang dengan tak disengajakan and i know its actually can change.  

First in my mind is, only one name someone that i called "tiger mama"   i dont want her, i cant see her eyes, i cant talk with her because i scare, whatsoever i really dont want her to interview me, see what i get, shes really infront me, why youuuuuuu?? its really got me insane for awhile.   Banyak soalan yang bukan2 bermain dekat dalam otak aku ni, errrkkk go go !! 

Anyways, i thing i'm pretty lucky a bit, humm because i do not need the interview just like everyone else, bertubi-tubi soalan dituju.hahaha that not i can called it a normal interview, just like i meet someone that i really know ... only 6 minute i interviewees.  thats time i really cant think right,  apalah soalan yang dia nak tanya? kene speaking ke? bagilah soalan senang-senang, macam aku ni dah masuk kandang harimau, Maouuuuuuu mau tak masa tu kaki mengigil semua mengigil.  But i cant put myself dalam keadaan yakin atau mengharap.  only rezeki dan masa sahaja yang tentukan...

After that, huhhhhhhh lega gilee, macam baru lepaskan segala beban kat bahu aku... anyways, teng for the interview, because not many question you ask me and yang penting dia ingat aku hahahah.  BTW, i also enjoy with my friends, we have a good time to spend time together. 

Anyways, wish me luck

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A short time !!

it started when we doing the task together.  since diploma showcase over, i mean its really over forever but our friendship is actually not over.  we still contact each other.  i really respect to her because she really understand me, she know what i like, and also she gave me the opportunity to create something that i wanted to do, and she's also not someone who likes to decide things that people don't like. 

i'm not going to praised, but it is a real. 

and this is nurfahara and me, a lots memories her give to me and other.  I can't complain what she did to me,  everything that she have done with me its really means.  i'am kinda like lose you gedik.  gonna miss you alots. oh ya, happy bday gedik, jangan jadi budak-budak lagi okey. 

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after long !!

Assalamualaikum guy, 

still remember my favorite band, Avenged sevenfold.

i'am still remeber what i said before this bout this band. 

today is the day that quite bored, so i wanna do something special to A7x, it seem like what i found in Avenged sevenfold blog.  But I'm also asking for help from someone who is willing to teach me how to paint. It showed i am lazy to think hoe to draw something easy like this.  

so this is a result. it same like the original logo from this band.  If i have a chance like what just think now, i wanna to give this foto to them (tinggi angan-angan) maybe one day.  is it normal to love this band like this.  hemm may be some people say i'm "pemberontak" sebenarnya but its actually not.  agak pelik bila perempuan suka band or lagu yang keras-keras like this.  hemm but for me, there is nothing strange to me. its depends on person, aku tak halang minat seseorang, so dont critic me because i really like this band.  I wanna do something a bit different in my life. And also experience something that I like watching and hear..

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The place where we together !!

hi, somewhere that we have done together, makes me remember the last time that only us know.  

I know I changed somehow
i'am change because there is have a reason
i'am not change because there is no meaning

i'am sorry if i make a lot of changes.

semua orang berubah, mungkin bukan sekarang dan mungkin ianya sekarang.  same like me, i just can say that.   I still remember the sweet moments between us, you and me.  One thing that i see that you are also changing, you make a decision, and i'm also make a decision to change.   

hi guy, you believe that friends can make you smile in grief? yes for me.  i believe that what just i write now.  friends can make me smile, even sometime friend not thinking bout me.  ya normal.  Honesly i say that not only to one person or friends close with me but too all my friends actually. 

When i think it back, i feel like i just wanna die, kinda like i was not no in the world.  entah dikayagan mana entah.

Back to the "change" i have a my own reason why i'm change.  I stat change from semesta 4, nightmare comes too mylife.  BAD, BAD. but its reality, its come without uninvited.  apa pun dulu kita bertiga. As everyone know and see, we no longer like before. This is all because of my attitude. I'm very stubborn. Honestly i want to state once again with us, people we have ever put together. But what can i do, i cant turn back the time. 

After this we will undergo our respective lives. each of them had its own life, I will pray for your happiness, and i will never forget the memories we have created together before.  Honesly i'm realy miss when we together.  Hope that we can stay like before, and i just can pray for that. 

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Only us !

I took a long time to post this things.
it may take some time to think, for me this is the reality.

Begins and ending in our life it is normal.  Somtime we thinking what the beginning and what the ending ya everybody thinking bout it. Somtime we should not to thinking bout it, just do what should we do.

Reality

life is life, die si die no words that can change.  Only the believe and trust to be the situation.  we have no choice.  bak kata pepatah, "masa tidak boleh mengundur" that is reality.  Reality that happens to us all that everything has been designed and specified. and we also determine good and bad in ourselves.  kita hanya merancang.  Such as our daily lives, everyday people will to sleep no matter night or morning we would be asleep, like son / daughter of heaven.  i dont understand why people sleep late at night and the morning wake up as ussually and buat muka cam tak cukup tidur.  ya i know some people do the work, so its can be a reason why.  

one things that i always ask myself bout special.  every person have a special in ourlife.  even he/she does not say it but still we can see by the actions.  All people have their own intelligence. and i respect to you.  ya kau lebih pandai dalam hal ini but dont make people feel that they are stupid person.  Just do your own work.  Don interfering in other people's work.  respect lah sikit. 

please don't make me more emotional.   Now i just be silent and patient with the work i do.  I'm not just sit and gayang kaki to do my work sometime i tried and dont know what should i do, that why something matter i ask you for help me, but don't take my job. I do my work and i know how to manage my time.  

really not anderstand you, why you want do d work more than your work,  that not your job, please i know its make me more confusion, kau lebih tahu tentang itu and i hope that you will to teach me and not to take the job. 

like you know everything, hah.  Only you know ya pergi sekolah, belajar, beli buku dll but think people think!! all people in this world going too the school learn the same thing.  So what think lah.  i'am not to give you feel down bout this but what i feel and see, let me keep it.  i mean not only me see what i said ya you know it. ya ramai kot.  And people of couse can say that what i do for my job if  there are others that make it for me. What i doing all night? online, blogging, tweets or play d game or talking with moon or what? hemm its how people can say to me.  

I talk too much.  sometime i feel like weak, nothing in myself.  You should kinda thinking bout this, at least thinking bout my feeling.  I know kau nampak cam aku tak buat kerja n tak tahu apa-apa kan.  that why you chose this way.  I  asks you about this before, but you kinda play in scene your action not serious. 

people dont want listen my word.  why? am i stump? guys.  oh man! is it i look like stump.  ya tqvm guys.  tak tahulah pulak hik.  if i asked you, you dont wanted to do, if i angry you will mad at me back and i did not want angry because i do not want a lot of things there. but because i like this a lot of problems comes. 

honestly I am happy working with you please dont take any point what i'm just talking.

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changes to strong !!

Assalamualaikum guys.

sempena bulan puasa ini aku nak konsikan satu video yang sangat menyentuh hati, dan mungkin boleh membuatkan kita mengalirkan air mata (produktif muslim).  kadang-kadang kita tak sedar apa yang patut kita nampak dan kadang-kadang kita nampak benda yang tak sepatutnya kita nampak.

please don't read this if you think its nothing, and this post very long.

Here I would like to share one video yang akan memberi kita kesedaran, i'am not say that i'am good person or good muslim.  i just know what i know.  

aku selalu beranggapan yang hidup aku sentiasa diduga dengan ujian.   I still remember that time, masa sekolah dulu.  i have many sad stories.  i lost my friends i'm really sad that time sometime i think because I was unlucky.  aku menghakimi benda yang sepatutnya aku tidak mampu untuk mempertikaikan ia.  Subhanallah, aku sangat kejam.  tiba pada saatnya rupanya Allah menghantar seorang kawan yang benar-benar memahami aku.  syukur.

And i do not want it'll happened once again... 

Someone that has sparked a range of views and my feeling now.  i'am not too blame you.  that mistake may be come from me too.  you said that i'am 'unlucky girl'.  who are you want to judge me like that.  is it your life very lucky ha?  because your word many people look at you like a ?  i'am not going to say that.  RUDE.  The words that come from your mouth, not from the mouth of another person. honestly myheart is broken and sick to hear people telling the same thing, but i have to accept that it's coming from someone called a friend.  You are still my friends even you are not consider me as your friend.  Its okey i'm really understand dears.  thank you for everything that make me smile that all we share, sometime you make my life is colourfull.  But this video make me feel better.

bak kata pepatah,  "kusangka panas sampai ke petang rupanya hujan ditengah hari" what you feel when people not to going appreciated you? huh it feel like you just wanna die right. today i'am really boring,  facebook, blog, twitter, it actually nothing.  but i got one video from youtube, ya i thing is really cute, cool and smart.  

check it out

http://www.youtube.com/user/lproduksi?feature=watch

when we are sad, then we know these things.  Now we 19 years old.  sometime we miss and forget these things in our lives.  i'm not say that i'm strong face of all these.  tetapi banyak benda lagi yang perlu kita pelajari dan memahami.  Please don't judge people who make mistake.  sebagai contoh korang yang nak tentukan dosa n pahala dia.  who are you? are you god.  sesuka hati judge orang macam tu.  some people make a blunder, and some people know what there do.  bila dia susah dia cari tuhan untuk megadu segala masalah dia.  that time of couse dia akan cerita atau mengadu pada kawan then yang paling aku tak faham bila kau yang mengigatkan dia untuk ingatkan tuhan tapi akhirnya kau buat andaian kau sendiri macam mana yang kau cakapkan dia 'susah baru ingatkan tuhan'  This is warning for you.  don't think you are perfect even kau tak tinggal apa yang wajib kene buat, but you miss one think.  'siapa yang lebih layak menghukum manusia kalau bukan Allah, bukannya kau sebagai manusia, yang sama macam yang lain.  always do a mistake.' you don't have a anything to judge people oraitt. (this is for people who think perfect)


i just can pray what should i do to make everthing come back to normal,  if its all is my false, i'am really sorry, i'am sory to changing, i'am sorry it had to be this way believe me its not easier just to pretend but i won't apologist for who i'am. 

Never do that !!

Hai Assalamualaikum,guy.

what is the meaning behind this title, ahah, what should we do not do it, but we do? what.

much that we should never do. But people always do a mistake.   

Nature of life.

never do that number 1 : trick people.  who are you want to trick people like this.  i'am not say i'm good But the trick is not how i am in person.  you think is it good and no give a impact on a person.  don't do that.

never do number 2 : bullying. buli tak bermaksud memukul, atau lain-lain. maksud disni adalah "pijak kepala".  You are surrounded by good people, but you used them to 'pijak kepala' for what. it will satisfy you?. ya some people like to bullying people.  actually the motif there do this is '?' if you have a feeling to jealous to someone ahah actually you are nothing.  right.  am i wrong?.

never do number 3 :  feel perfect in yourself.  it will be bad if I continue to write this (rude). No one is perfect.  tapi siapa lagi akan cakap kita sempurna kalau bukan diri sendiri. ya right we must believe not to feel or feeling to be perfect.  Allah cipta kita sama je.  

never do number 4 : mixed.  jangan sesekali campur aduk hal kerja dan peribadi.  mana ada orang yang keluar dari masalah tanpa mencampur adukkan hal-hal yang lain.  but we must to be professional.  even you don't like to see her face but thinklah.  I'am also mixed my problem but sometime i should not to do that.  I think for a second time to do all that.  i same like you.  i don't know what ae you thinking now.  

p/s : possible what i'am thinking, but not all of what i think i write here. Sometimes it should be kept not too expressed.  My feeling strong to speak.  Throw me.  Not me to throw what we hat we do first, the memories make me smile.

make it mine !!

Assalamualaikum, now its again haha.  At 2am is who updates his blog.  
today i'am really happy about the days.   I seem to a long waiting this time. like love songs. it made ​​me a very busy woman. hahaha not like that, first, of course, Thursday is the day when full, busy struck.  and thens lepak and see the performents bout life.  cehh even in a busy day aku tetap ada masa untuk aku mengadap benda alah nih apa lagi blog, facebook, and twitter.   honest today was very tired, and I do not go home because of busy.  Give me space to breathe. 

fahara, khalida :)

thank you fahara bcoz you made my morning with a laugh and a smile. you a cheerful.  you make me so insane.  hahaha it was just jokes.

zainur aka xeno

xeno what you have done to me, sejak bila aku tukar n ambil bahagian doku nih.  hahaha i'm just kidding.  doku is my part for the theater keluarga 69 je lah.  hahaha rela hati buat keje tuh.  These faces of the people who are really tired, not to go home, did not see the mirro and all lah.  paling ketara tuh si xeno n aku kerana terlampau penat sangat sampaikan keluar spotlight dari dahi aku hahahah macam mengejek je gambar nih.  ishhh jendol !! beruntung rasa bila ada light macam tuh. hahaha

I'm a biggest fan Avenged sevenfold and Big Band !!

haloo Assalamualaikum,
no wonder is if the two names above I like.  Avenged sevenfold long i does not update about this group, what happen ha? macam biasa mereka baru habis menjelajah untuk show mereka.  I do not know too much about this group in recent years.

bigband 
Korean groups 'Kpop' growing popular near here.  tak heranlah kenapa orang suka kumpulan ni... This group may have little differences from other groups. I do not say that this group is the most best, there is also the best kind of 2pm, supar junior and etc.  but honestly I am not like Kpop highly and actually I prefer music that is towards the west.  english style.