i just can't sleep tonight!!

It's already 2am in the morning and I still can't sleep.  i don't know why.  it is very hard for me to close my eyes to sleep. pain that I feel is very cruel. I lost my mind.
I closed my eyes for not see the bad day and i pray that it does not happen, give me one day more to get ready to open my eyes.  i just can sleep tonight it will happen again.  I don't know what i'm supposed to do right now.  just see plus the emotion that drew apart me and I can not take it.  so many drama that you can see in this world.  ya ya i seem look like happy with my life outside  but it is all the pretend that I should do, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu.  that is where my place.

my hair loss, and probably I will quickly old.  

what I can do at this time right now, i just can pray to Allah to help me out from this situation, because sometime i need make a chance. when i'm thinking back, I remember the time first we all  met. 

  
Bitter, Sweet, Sour, Hot, Bland

that all we would go through,  sometime it probably sweet or bitter but we take it as a challenge.  but i don't know apa yang berlaku sekarang.  Maybe I was the cause of it.  Now i just want to give a fuck to fucking.  (sorry a bit harsh).  it makes me hurt, if now I just hallucinations at you.  Please don't do that to me but kau ada hak untuk semua itu.  

thank you to Zainur, Wansha and Syud coz make me laugh and smiling agains that day sebelum kita start berpuasa.  Place that always be a place for food. hahaha Where else kandanglah and after that we continue into the night induction.  waw, so nice looking about the theme 'orang kampung' but we do not follow the theme was adopted.  Ands there i can see what i want to see. 

i think its all and done to hurt myself. Now i can sleep.  Through situations like this make me feel better I die than see and feel the pain that has no cure.

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